1952
So
I left my job and never really told them why, other than a few vague noises
about freedom and time on my own. I cashed in my savings, my policies and what
was left of the inheritance then bought myself a
schooner. I had planned on taking it around the
I
hauled her down the channel, into the Iroise and
through the Gascogne, heading west for the bays. But
my plans changed again and I sailed through them, only pausing for
Only
my plans were changed for me, this time. The wind changed, the seas changed and
the schooner no longer held onto the same course for anything longer than
fifteen minutes. I had to hug the shore and eventually I found myself dragged
into an estuary by some gloomy mountains where the boat ran aground and we
stopped, this time without trying.
No
damage to the flat keel. Seems like a fair place to stop. I hopped off and
splashed up the beach to the small town whose bell tower spire could be seen
from the shore. And it was an extraordinary place; astragalled
windows, wrought iron balconies, alcoves with statues
and whitewashed walls were everywhere. Long overgrown trees and bushes sprouted
between cobbled paths and a sprawling lawn carpeted with weeds separated the
area. Ivy covered pillars surrounded a colonnaded bandstand. In the middle was
a large pool, with a plinth in the middle. There was even a statue of Atlas there.
The whole place looked like it had been tended carefully thirty years ago and
then never touched again.
It
is absolutely deserted. The wind whistles quietly. I can hear the waves on the
shoreline louder than almost anything else. Good grief. Where am I?
There
is a building far over to the right with a large green dome. Maybe someone
lives there. I walk down to the lawn gates but I am amazed to find it locked
shut with the key in the padlock. How bizarre. I turn the key and it breaks off
in my hand, degenerated by years of rust.
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You’ll find
that nothing much round here works
any more.
I
nearly shout out loud with fright. Behind me is a man wearing a blazer and a
scarf. He also has a long beard. He looks very old – very tired. I compose
myself.
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My boat ran
aground here. I was looking for some help to get it shifted.
He
smiles knowingly.
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Yes, yes…aground. No one comes here; they all set
out with bad directions. Is that what
you have too?
His
voice is strong…strident. Very clipped and precise, almost mannered - as though
he was giving me a speech he had been rehearsing to himself for years.
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I don’t
understand, I say. – I just wanted some help. I need to get away.
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Yes well help
is not something I’ve found very plentiful around this place. As for getting away I suggest you look around
you and think to yourself just how many people got away from this place. None? One? Half of them?
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I really don’t
understand.
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No. But we
have a well-populated graveyard that
I have somehow managed to avoid after all this time. And one and ‘one’ are just the same.
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The same?
You’re losing me, sir.
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Yes. You know…six of one?
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I’m sorry, but
you seem to be talking in riddles. Who are you?
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One is one.
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Maybe I should
be getting back to my boat.
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No, I mean
that one – as in ‘myself’ – is One. And this
place really has no name. At least none that I have found in the time I
have been here. Not a real one.
He
would be frightening were he not so old and frail
looking, but the strength of his spirit and resonance of his voice are oddly
compelling. His clothes hang off him in an untidy state of disrepair. The white
piping on the blazer has greyed and frayed on the
collar and is missing from one lapel. None of this seems to fit with him; he
would have been handsome once, maybe. Maybe proud. Surely
he cannot live in this little town on his own? It’s all very strange. Certainly
something to put in today’s journal. Better than descriptions of fried meals
and fish and rice and rain and wind.
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How long have
you been here?
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As long as I
can really remember, my dear girl.
His
voice is kindly now. Like a generous uncle.
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And who built
it?
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Shhh…these are all a burden to others, don’t you think?
He
draws a question mark in the air and raises his eyebrows. Turning around he
walks off slowly, past a rusted penny farthing bicycle and up the steps towards
the tower. I follow after him.
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Are you all
alone here?
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All alone. As
long as I can really remember.
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Are you on
holiday?
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I
confess that I do not.
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Do you have
any ropes I can use to pull my boat off the shore?
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Oh, they have
everything like that here you know.
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Then maybe I
should just get them and leave you here…would that be better?
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Better? A
prison for oneself now, is it? Very droll
what they are sending me these days. Well. You really must be going now,
mustn’t you?
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Yes. I suppose
I must. Do you want me to leave?
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I would prefer
it if we could all leave.
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I thought you
said that you were alone.
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That
is what I meant. You really must run along. Your masters will be waiting for
you.
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I have no
‘masters’, I laugh. – What gives you that idea?
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What indeed? Be seeing you.
And
he walks off towards the dome. I don’t follow, but hunt about the shore and
find nylon ropes which I take back to the boat. But the boat isn’t where I left
it; instead I find it has been refloated about thirty
feet into the water and that the anchor has been dropped. There are no
footprints on the sand other than where I had walked. I drop the ropes and wade
into the cold waters, swimming the last twenty feet and climbing over the
stern. The engines fire up and I pull the vessel out into the water and head
back out. Looking back I see his solitary figure stand and wave from the
colonnade. Above him, a moving glint appears in the belltower,
then stops. He turns around and I lose sight of him.
I
drop a gear and speed back towards the